I just need to get this off my chest. I will be at 1 month cigarette free tomorrow. I normally sell myself short on a lot of accomplishments behind remaining overly humble, but this is not one of them. I am very proud of myself for doing this quitting smoking thing! It seemed damn near impossible. I had a bunch of friends that were also smokers, but of all of them - it felt like I was the professional and they were a bunch of amateurs. I was the one that needed a pack a day. I was the one that would turn into the Hulk if I didn't get a smoke break occasionally. I was the one holding up the kids in Disney because daddy needed to duck around a corner to light one up while others looked at me as though I was shooting up a rig of heroin. It sucked, but you know what? I needed it (or so I thought). My addiction seemed hopeless. I would get jealous as the years went by and friend after friend quit from what seemed to be so easy for him/her. They just put them down cold turkey with no chantix and no gum. I'm not that person. I guess maybe it's my addictive qualities (I am an addict/alcoholic 12 years sober). Maybe it was the last crutch I had. Who knows? But I do know one thing, I was way worse off than my peers.
Fast forward to January 10th 2018. Here I am, one day removed from being cigarette free. I am about to cut the Chantix loose, and haven't yet worked on the nicotine gum, but that will be a little down the road. It feels like a miracle, honestly! I know I'm not supposed to talk about anything spiritual, but I have relied on that part as much as I have working the steps in being sober. And it works. I also really like the "NOPE" concept, and that has saved my butt more than any of you could imagine! I tell people about this site and they all love that. I don't know who came up with that, but I'd like to buy him/her lunch to say the least!
My cravings have been in/out over the last two weeks. But from what I've been reading, that's normal. Not out of the woods quite yet on this thing. I'm having faith in what you all say that it gets better. In fact, by keeping my mouth shut and my ears open and having a little faith, I'm doing exactly what I did when I was brand new in sobriety.
Sorry for the novel. Just giving my thoughts on month one of a very important accomplishment in my life - quitting smoking. Extremely grateful, to say the least. I don't know any of you, but I love all of you. Here's to another day of not putting that poison in our lungs!