So Hi everyone,
I am on day 38 of my quit and feeling all the feels.
I still feel psychotically up and down emotionally...super great at work, really sad and depressed after work, so I work out, do errands, wash the car...anything to keep moving and from sitting and feeling lonely and sad.
Pretty f*****g exhausting..I keep asking myself, MY GOD< when do I get to take a f*****g break from this recovery???
I fill my time with visiting friends that do not smoke and doing other things that I avoided doing when my life revolved around smoking. I feel super awesome about all of it...and the obvious advantages are keeping me from stopping and buying any tobacco.
HOWEVER I go to a lot of events where tons of my friends smoke...whom I love and they by and large only smoke at the party...NOT in real life....so frustrating!!!!
I am about to travel to the Oregon Eclipse music festival and there will be all my people smoking and it truly is this awesome communal thing we all shared.
I am already missing being a part...even though they all support me, I feel worried I will cave in and take it up again...and I DO NOT want to do this.
How do I manage the week?!
Last time I quit I was 4 months in and then went to a festival and boom...was a smoker again.
I AM NOT REPEATING THAT. But I AM going because I want to see the eclipse and dance and be with all my west coast family that will be there...certainly I do not have to exile myself from all the fun just because I am in recovery...how can I have both?
Suggestions and Celebrations because I miss the ritual I shared with certain friends and the release on the daily like the true addict I am....so painful.
TIPS for staying connected to smoking friends socially?
Tips besides candy and toothpicks for my mouth?! I hate gum and mints.