Thanks Jill i remember you posting this, I am now nearly at the point you were then and can say i feel the same now. as you did.It's good to know tho that it will get easier in a month or so.
It WILL get easier, little by little it already has although you might not yet notice the day to day changes... but it definitely gets easier.
I really do appreciate Jillar having posted this. One reason that a lot of us don't go into detail about "bad days" or days that feel like "back to square one" when we're further along is this.
Some newer quitters in the past have jumped on that and said "Oh God, if you feel that bad at X months etc. along, I might as well give up right now I can't take it knowing I will always feel this way" and use it as an excuse to cave in.
They in their new-quitter brain fog, mis-interpret a "bad day" as a "bad rest of my life". No every day isn't yippee skippee, and yes sometimes a swarm of gnats flies in your face (I equate desire to smoke at later quits as "little gnats to be flicked away easily", so that's what the swarm of gnats is, sometimes.) but it is still way way easier to let go of those feelings & get rid of the gnats than it is to hang on tight to the quit the earliest days.
And, for the most part, no matter how crappy a day you're having, you can have the bright spot of "I didn't smoke today, yaaay me!" to lift your spirits, no matter how short a time or how long a time you've been quit. Embrace your quit! Your life depends on it .