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#1 jwg

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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:19 PM

A lazy Texas river spanning form Kerr county Texas to the San Antonio bay on the Gulf of Mexico.  If you ever need to find a place to relax enjoy the sunshine while refreshing from the hot Texas sun, nothing beats a lazy day tubing down the slow winding of deep greens and blue. Some place your arm able to reach down and feel the stones polished by the millenniums. Hiding secrets of the Alamo and days gone by. A sacred place, where no worries in the world can follow, No troubles from work are allowed to enter, only you and your desire to be at peace can break the waters edge.

 

In my resent ventures over this past summer I had the opportunity to experience the river , its majesty and glory , Not only was I with the river I was with the finest people in the world to share the experience. By day floating lazily carefree and by night telling stories lounging about the cabin or sitting under the stars on the porch, cooking out burgers some night or fajita’s..

 

 

I often think of that trip and the fun we all had, to go back in time , even in memory can be so nice . Some days we would float solo or holding hands keeping close together. other days we banded are pack together by twine and traveled the river as one , like a Robin Hood and his merry men , or maybe Tom Sawyer and some of his boy hood chums.

 

One particular day we were going solo , but I lashed the tube with the cooler to my rig

6 hours or so , surly you need some sort of refreshment and maybe even pull up on to  a clear shore line for  a bite to eat.. And so we did. After lunch two of are young explores

Decided to forgo the tubes, swim a bit and comb the bottom of the river for secret hidden treasures,, Lost sunglass or the mother load a Iphone or other such valuable loot.

 

Now with no use for there tubes , the young explores piled them on top of the cooler . So there I was, in my tube tied to a stack of three tubes and a cooler. To which the wind had greater strength to control then the  slow easiness of the river current.

Some times I would find the wind speeding me along , while others the wind dragging me back and my group of merry band of men flowing down the river far in front of me.

 

While still enjoying the river the ride and the scenery I really had no control of the speed of my travel , to which side of the river I would coast. Sometimes the wind would bring me in to the tree line . Catching me on limbs and others casting me out into the deeper waters. Basicly I was at the mercy of powers much greater then myself..

 

 

As history repeats itself ,, this is where I find myself once more, only today laying in my hospital bed.

With each  day that passes more tubes are added to my burden, and now with each tube the wind carries me faster down the river then we could have ever imagined.

 

Just a few hundred yards back the option of chemo loomed in the air to slow the winds and the current giving me more time to enjoy the river, but now once  more due to powers beyond my control I find myself helpless. My illness grows faster then can be controlled.

 

I am at peace, I am comfortable. I am in my tube enjoying every last minute of my ride

Down the Guadalupe

 

I can not see the end to the river nor do I look forward to its end..

 

I have my friends , I have my family , I have you all , and I have the love of a beautiful women , my angel, my everything to comfort and care for me

 

I love you all

 

 

And will to my best keep you posted

 

 

In the mean time

 

Don’t put things in your mouth and light them on fire !!


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:28 PM

 

I am at peace, I am comfortable. I am in my tube enjoying every last minute of my ride

 

 

 

 That makes me happy, although "happy" is far, far from the right word.


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:29 PM

Bless you, John.  I have been praying for peace and serenity for you.


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:31 PM

Your words paint such a beautiful picture, John.  Even nature can't match them.

 

But...here's some shots so we can go rafting with you all.

 

Guadalupe River State Park Slide Show

 


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:32 PM

John, thanks for sharing this beautiful memory....and I am grateful that it brings you comfort.  You are in our hearts.


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:40 PM

I love you. As everyone does here. And we will all be with you to carry those tubes down this river. You are not alone in this journey John. We are holding your hand. And will forever do so. You may have been behind us or in front of us, but we never lost sight of each other. We were still together.

Try as you might, your not as invisible as you think. We can see you shining from far far away.
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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:40 PM

Oh John, thank you for this post and all the others over the last few years. I been blessed to share this journey with you.

I'm so glad you were able to spend a summer on the Guadalupe River. It is a magical way to spend hot summer days....

I hope you are comfortable and able to relax and float along your journey now.....

I'm so sorry the river ends before it should sometimes. Sending to you all my thoughts, prayers, and heartfelt comforting hugs my friend.

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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:42 PM

Beautiful.

 

I love you, too.

 

God be with you.

 

Goodbye.



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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:53 PM

He's not dead yet Mike.  Jesus. Still praying for a miracle over here in NZ


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:58 PM

He's not dead yet Mike.  Jesus. Still praying for a miracle over here in NZ

 

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Posted 12 December 2013 - 05:58 PM

Love you my friend.  Stay in the tube and feel the warmth of the sun on your face. We are with you always.


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 06:19 PM

As allways, a nice story to convey a meaninful message. God bless you Jhon.


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 06:25 PM

You remind me of my Dad, John.  I love him so much!  

 

That river sounds like an awesome and peaceful place.  Keep on tubing.  Prayers to you!


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 06:32 PM

this is such a beautiful post it made me cry from emotion....my squirrels n I still pray for you <3


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 06:32 PM

Peace and blessings... I never met you face to face, but....I love you just the same
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Posted 12 December 2013 - 06:56 PM

may god always be with you john  because we are john  peace to you and your family  enjoy the ride down the river god bless you    we all love you here john  :sad:   praying for you


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 06:59 PM

I love you, my brother... I pray for comfort and love to surround you.


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 07:18 PM

John, your ability to share your life's journey through your beautiful words has opened my eyes. The love and friendship that we give and that we receive are all that really matter, for when all is said and done, it's all we have left. Your stories have left an imprint on my heart. Ride that river in peace and comfort, my friend. Let the sun shine on your face and the currents gently rock you. And know that, whenever your time comes, you have left this world a a better place. That's all any of us can really hope for. 


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 07:19 PM

This is such a beautiful and moving post John - thank you as always for sharing your gift and your journey. You are such a wonderful wordsmith and person and I feel privileged to have benefitted from your wisdom and your stories. You have helped so many with your writing and you will continue to do so - I thank you for that and send you hope, strength and prayers. And thanks to the wonderful pictures you paint with your words we are all with you in spirit, floating along that peaceful and beautiful river. Thank you.   


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Posted 12 December 2013 - 07:21 PM

John, Once again you have captured our hearts with your poignant story. Thank you for sharing your life through your stories with us.

 

I love you too and also pray for you to take comfort in the love we radiate towards you.


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