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#1 kevtav

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Posted 28 August 2013 - 06:39 AM

Since I just broke my one year quit, I thought I would tell people my experience with smoking.

 

1) It feels gross. It smells gross.

 

2) Only about 6 cigarettes into a pack did I get any "light headed" effect that felt so good when you first start smoking, after that nothing same as an everyday smoker.

 

3) My body adjusted to it pretty much right away, even my super clean lungs took to it like I smoked yesterday, which is scary.

 

4) The effect is negligible, there really is NO difference between a cig now, and the last one I smoked a year ago.

 

5) It does absolutely nothing. There is no feeling of elation or calmness.

 

6) The addiction creeps in, but it feels like a voice which is telling my "screw it" like it's a vacation, which most likely is the addiction again, but it's hard to tell.

 

7) Knowing all this, and feeling sick smoking these things, I still want to grab one, but not like before. I'm not thinking of them as often. But that could be the lack of receptors in my brain from a year off though.

 

The main thing is that I totally see both sides now and realize it's actually doing NOTHING for me positive. Not even a good feeling. No relaxation or mindstate I couldn't get from a walk, or a piece of gum, or eating an apple. It's pretty stupid. I feel the difference in my body just after one day of relapsing, everything kinda feels poluted.

 

Let this be a lesson to those of you who think you are missing something. You aren't. Whatever you fantasize it to be it's not that.


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 06:47 AM

Be careful Kev ! Dont start playing with fire too much! i just would not know what to tell you, make a plan and quit again when you are ready, but dont fall in love again with them because you will, its and addiction and it will be harder to quit every day you smoke

 

I would consider you put a limit to the number you quit, take your time make a plan and set a new quit date, your not already hooked but it will get you eventually and you know it. Think about it, im just a newb but giving the best i got to you,! best wishes man


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 07:24 AM

Whenever I relasped it felt like coming home and like I never had quit, I'm sure after almost 2 yrs free the addict in me would jump for Joy if I had one. That's why once free we never can smoke again cause it would undo all that work.
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Posted 28 August 2013 - 07:31 AM

Since I just broke my one year quit, I thought I would tell people my experience with smoking.

 

1) It feels gross. It smells gross.

 

2) Only about 6 cigarettes into a pack did I get any "light headed" effect that felt so good when you first start smoking, after that nothing same as an everyday smoker.

 

3) My body adjusted to it pretty much right away, even my super clean lungs took to it like I smoked yesterday, which is scary.

 

4) The effect is negligible, there really is NO difference between a cig now, and the last one I smoked a year ago.

 

5) It does absolutely nothing. There is no feeling of elation or calmness.

 

6) The addiction creeps in, but it feels like a voice which is telling my "screw it" like it's a vacation, which most likely is the addiction again, but it's hard to tell.

 

7) Knowing all this, and feeling sick smoking these things, I still want to grab one, but not like before. I'm not thinking of them as often. But that could be the lack of receptors in my brain from a year off though.

 

The main thing is that I totally see both sides now and realize it's actually doing NOTHING for me positive. Not even a good feeling. No relaxation or mindstate I couldn't get from a walk, or a piece of gum, or eating an apple. It's pretty stupid. I feel the difference in my body just after one day of relapsing, everything kinda feels poluted.

 

Let this be a lesson to those of you who think you are missing something. You aren't. Whatever you fantasize it to be it's not that.

this is similar to what i experienced after relapsing after 91 days quit.  Remember this post for when you quit again and get tempted, you can read your own words as to how it felt to go back to it.

 

I would jump back on as soon as possible, i delayed and procrastinated for a few months, and feasibly could have kept procrastinating until the day I die if I didn't commit again to just do it.

 

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Good luck, bro, stay close to the boards.


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 07:57 AM

Hi Kev,

 

Now that you've known it does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for you, what's the point in waiting?! :) get back on the train buddy! Don't take that next puff anymore, and you're there- a happy non-smoker again. I would say don't put too much sh**T on yourself, get rid of that "what have i done" feeling quickly, being over-stressed would only worsen the whole thing. BUT remember the lesson you had. 

 

Welcome Back- in advance- anticipating your quick comeback.  :smile:


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 12:58 PM

Hi Kev,
 
Now that you've known it does ABSOLUTELY NOTHING for you, what's the point in waiting?! :) get back on the train buddy! Don't take that next puff anymore, and you're there- a happy non-smoker again. I would say don't put too much sh**T on yourself, get rid of that "what have i done" feeling quickly, being over-stressed would only worsen the whole thing. BUT remember the lesson you had. 
 
Welcome Back- in advance- anticipating your quick comeback.  :smile:


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 01:54 PM

One of the best post of the last 11 months I spent here. I did not read it as he was continuing to smoke, just that he tried it and it wasnt worth it.

 

 

Update- he did smoke more than one but reposted on how bad the entire pack made him feel. This post needs the warning "Dont try this at home."


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 02:16 PM

Excellent post !!!

 

I will put this on my list of great posts to bump once or twice a month.

 

A strong reminder for our addict brains that the illusion of smoking is not ever the same as the gross reality.

 

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Posted 28 August 2013 - 02:21 PM

There are already at least hundreds of lessons on this message board.  The problem is everyone thinks they are special and that they can just have one cigarette and be done.   I choose to take their word for it and not go through that quitting hell again.


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Posted 28 August 2013 - 03:03 PM

Some of us learn by experience and few ( the wise) will learn from others avoiding the pain of the failure.

 

Thank you for sharing.


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I quit because I just got tired of the life under a rock, dark and with not enough air to breathe waiting for the day to get crushed!

Alcohol to a quit is like Kryptonite to Superman

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If a Doctor gives you 6 months to live, would you start living after the first three? Quit now!

" I am a puff away form a pack a day"

Once you stop puffing or having Nicotine in any form, then and only then your symptoms will stop.

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Posted 29 August 2013 - 12:47 AM

Thank you. :)

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Posted 29 August 2013 - 01:28 AM

Awesome...post! thank you posting and for keeping it real!
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#13 Cristobal

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Posted 27 September 2013 - 07:14 AM

Bumping this as a reminder.

 

*SMOKING SUCKS* !!!

 

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Posted 27 September 2013 - 01:18 PM

Thanks a great reminder,it has to be n.o.p.e always.
 
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Posted 27 September 2013 - 01:51 PM

A great reminder of just how much is at stake every single day, and why we must protect our quits as is our lives depend on it. They *do* depend on it!
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#16 Cristobal

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Posted 27 October 2013 - 04:12 PM

Bumping a great post !!!

 

 

 

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Posted 27 October 2013 - 07:02 PM

Good points in the post. I'm kind of confused though, are you still smoking?


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Posted 27 October 2013 - 07:20 PM

Excellent post...
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Posted 27 October 2013 - 07:27 PM

Good points in the post. I'm kind of confused though, are you still smoking?

8ball, kevtav originally posted this on August 28....the last time he was on the board was August 29...so unfortunately, I would guess that he is still smoking....it makes me sick at my stomach to think of losing a quit of a year....N.O.P.E. for me!


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Posted 28 October 2013 - 12:28 AM

It wasn't a "lost" quit,

 

It was a perfectly good quit but it was flawed wasn't it, there was something wrong

with it, something wrong-headed in this 1 year old quit. It wasn't a real quit was it?

 

You don't throw a real quit out like it's a piece of trash, you don't put yourself back in chains

like the slave you used to be, unless there is really something wrong in your thought processes

that you would actually smoke after a year off. No excuse as far as I am concerned.

 

Might be the greatest post in the world but this doesn't mean it's a real quit.

 

Not if it was that easy to give it up.

 

Whatever, it doesn't mean shite to me if you threw away your quit.

 

 


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