I would not take something that your Dr. does not want to prescribe. There is a reason. We have a girl on here who is bipolar and she was taking Wellbutrin and had a very scarey reaction. She almost commited suicide. So I would not take that chance. She was lucky that she had someone around her who recognized what was happening. Once she was off the wellbutrin, she was okay. She by the way is still quit.
Please go to www.whyquit.com
and learn about the addiction. The anticipation of quitting is worse than actually quitting.
I know cold turkey sounds scarey.. it was to me but now that I have quit, I realize that using an aid is hard for the first 3 days and then you have to withdrawal from that.
I hope you find the help you need.