Since I just broke my one year quit, I thought I would tell people my experience with smoking.
1) It feels gross. It smells gross.
2) Only about 6 cigarettes into a pack did I get any "light headed" effect that felt so good when you first start smoking, after that nothing same as an everyday smoker.
3) My body adjusted to it pretty much right away, even my super clean lungs took to it like I smoked yesterday, which is scary.
4) The effect is negligible, there really is NO difference between a cig now, and the last one I smoked a year ago.
5) It does absolutely nothing. There is no feeling of elation or calmness.
6) The addiction creeps in, but it feels like a voice which is telling my "screw it" like it's a vacation, which most likely is the addiction again, but it's hard to tell.
7) Knowing all this, and feeling sick smoking these things, I still want to grab one, but not like before. I'm not thinking of them as often. But that could be the lack of receptors in my brain from a year off though.
The main thing is that I totally see both sides now and realize it's actually doing NOTHING for me positive. Not even a good feeling. No relaxation or mindstate I couldn't get from a walk, or a piece of gum, or eating an apple. It's pretty stupid. I feel the difference in my body just after one day of relapsing, everything kinda feels poluted.
Let this be a lesson to those of you who think you are missing something. You aren't. Whatever you fantasize it to be it's not that.